2017-04-07 22:40:08 UTC
[Martin Lynch-Gibbon has been told by Antonia, his wife, that she's
divorcing him for her shrink and their friend. In answer, Martin brings
Georgie, his own lover, in the conjugal home, for a visit, for the first
time, when he assumes Antonia's away.]
Georgie came in slowly. I could see in her the counterpart of my own
emotion. She stared at me, her lips parted, frowning, as if to see
whether the power of the room had given me a different face. Then she
looked very carefully around, nodding her head as she did so, seeming to
count the objects. I was absorbed in watching her, and in the spreading
throughout my whole being of the extraordinary experience of seeing her
there. I had spoken of 'breaking down the doubleness'. With what a rush
it was being broken down, and what a vista of open spaces, I felt in
those instants, were not now being opened to my astounded gaze. My
instinct in bringing Georgie here, and at once, had been a sound one:
and what I most apprehended, in the mixture of feelings that possessed
me, was the very possibility of loving Georgie more, of loving her better.
Iris Murdoch, A Severed Head
"what a vista of open spaces, . . . , were _not now_ being opened"
Why "not now" instead of perhaps "now"?